Tuesday O__o
I exploded >.< XueFen thanked me for being there for her and I exploded O.o

'Sorry I reacted that way but, I just don't know how to react to these things D: appreciation. And I thank you for noticing me :]'

It took me around 10min to adsorb the whole thing xD

Went to Lifeskill class on Wednessday O.o and the powerpoint is missing out A LOT of things :\ thanks to Miss Checkpoint not doing anything other than being a check point >.> Lot's of things have been settled out with Ms Wong around ^-^v but lots of things to do too T.T

After school went of to job training O.o the manager asked about "When was the last time you felt the sense of achievement?" I wanted to say what XueFen told me but best is to keep that to myself :3 So I told about me getting 1st in school for swimming.
Me: *raise hand*
Boss: 'yes? Are you ready? Do you have something to share?'
me: 'I once got first in a school swimming competition.'
Boss: 'what was the feeling like? How about from the start of the race.'
me: 'Well I was nervous because I felt naked standing up there with such tight outfit on. No longer motivated as I wasn't in the swimming club so no one cheered for me instate cheered at all the buffed up people, but I couldn't care less as I really REALLY needed to pee. When the horn blew, and we all dived in. I felt free, it's like the feeling of anti gravity and it calms me. I swam as fast as I could and the only thing in my mind was toilet. On the forth lap I've realise the fastest person other than me was half a lap behind me and that's when I've touched the finishing line, climbed up and went to pee.'(everyone laughed while I share it)
Boss: 'Well, how does it feel when you went up to collect your prize?'
me: 'cold'
Boss: 'cold?'
me: 'yea cold. I didn't have time to collect my towel and it was really windy.'
(I don't know what's so funny about that. But they laughed anyway xD)

So more speeches blah blah and then went to eat dinner with my friend who I've not met like forever xD And got too tired to do project O.o

Been like forever O__o
Well HEEELLLO!!

I've never felt so much heartache for a very very long time >.<
I guess it's because of the many things happening at the same time :\

I can't tell you because it's too late and I would have freak you out.. And I could lose you... again -.- And I can't let go, just because I cant T.T
If only I could bring back the past and does thing differently D: but no.. I'm too late >.> I hope you find what you're looking for and if you don't, I just want you to know.. I'll be here waiting for you.

Hopefully my next post would be a happy post .__.

Two days ago was my papa's birthday and I completely forgot about it O__o OOOPPS Had cake :3 me no like cake so much D: makes me feel like puking Q.Q no idea why~~
so far I've been watching one piece for a week and now I'm at episode 245 X___x I think I need one piece rehab xD because I'm starting to think I should call my friends my nakama :P
And oddly :\ I'm starting to find Singaporeans pathetic .__. again >.< I don't even know why D: maybe it's because of the horrible conversation I recently had this week .___.
I could have gone to school for half the day today because of an appointment I had O.o BUT!!!! I didn't :P I stayed home because I fell asleep at 7am watching One Piece xD I did plan to go to school today. Anyhow.. thanks to that not going to school xD I managed to talk to Eva ♥ ^^ But soon after I had to go for the appointment D: and I got there an hour early because my momma told me so D: and I end up wasting that one hour I could have with Eva T.T

I rather see her go than leaving her D:

I took the time to organise my phone contacts O__o and I regret it now lol damn >.>
After the whole appointment and check up thing O.o My momma decided to go IMM. I wasn't in any mood to do anything because I know Eva wont be on D: so I just goes with the flow~~
I checked up the Sony shop and now I feel stupid xD I went there to find the X series walk-man I did found it but at that moment I forget what's it's called xD and now that I now O___o I FEEL STUPID!!!!!! Q.Q I did play with it tho :3 and it's pretty damn awesome :D I'll buy it ^^ unless something new and better comes up xD like... the phone O__o Xperia X10 o______O must play with it first xD
Anyway!! :3 I got a new bike!!!!! xD I don't know if it's better or not O__o but I do believe it'll stop my depresstion of my long lost bike xD but my mom made me promise to pay her back O.o boo~~? xD

There only 2 things that I feel like talking about today O.o because those are all I remember xD
First of all the surgery O.o I went to an operating theatre O.o look just like those on tv and I was scared at 1st then excited xD the whole thing was painful but fun!! :P
I really do wish I could see what they were doing tho O.o I was strapped down D: and they had a cloth covering me from looking D: But I did feel pulling O.o multiple pulling so now I'm really bugged on what had happened xD
After the surgery I went back to the ward O.o and I really do love those chair :D it got leg rest :3 and freaking nice :D So I fell asleep O.o I think it's the whole drug thing that made me so sleepy >.< anyway I got a 7days Medical Certificate .__. but I really do want to go back school T.T I's going to lose out so much T.T no fair D:

The second thing I wanna talk about is Eva. I've been missing her a lot lately D: I think I'm going to use this Medical Leave to talk to her :3

When going to my cousin's house there was police patrolling the train and I was bored and I start starring at their guns and things they have on them and I stared at one of them in the eye for a long time lol I do notice he becoming nervous :P and pissed for sure O.o
Well went to Cousin's house and played Wii :D we tried a few games and it sucked :P so I end up with World of Goo and it's oddly fun :O Now I'm gonna get my get my brother to download it on computer!! :D

I ate my dinner there and watched some Singapore drama O.o soon after I goes home and the evaluator door shut on me D:
I wanted to take the bus home, I waited at the bus stop and gord it's filled with people D: waited for the bus anyway and it's full D: so I was like "beep" it and took the train xD

So yeah!! I guess I wont be doing anything this Chinese new year D: So don't really know what to do O.o I plan on watching movies. With who? I have no idea.

YiHao just made me regret being sociable >.> ANYWAY!!! I want to learn sign language O.o But there is 8 different classes D: have to pay for each separately O.o I'm going to try out first and the only one I can take is the introduction xD if I like it I'll continue to beginner :P

So yeah O.o I tried to sleep at 5PM yesterday but I can't D: because Stevanie gave Kim Pong's my number and he suddenly asked me to pass him my Sims 3 because he's that bored .__. when I got back tried to sleep again my youngest brother whose a little slow in the head kept coming in my room telling me about the game he's playing O.o I end up giving up and start using the laptop again at 7pm and went on a One Piece marathon :D until around 3am then I went to sleep
I woke up and got on at 8:45AM if I only got on minutes before I could have spoke to Eva D:
and something happened that pissed me off >.> well kind of pissed me of O.o I guess irritated me xD the night before, I was using the laptop so I didn't really focus on my brother filling his teddy bear up with cotton wools. When he's done he just switch off the lights. When I woke up to the light -holy sound- and I went to pee and found whiteness on my pants O.o And I'l like 'What the hell?!' I got cotton wools all over me D: I went back to my bed and found cotton all over my bolster D: my BRAND NEW AMAZING BOLSTER T^T

So now I'm gonna take a shower and to my cousin's house and beyond!!~ xD

xD today there was telephony class and it was easy :P
I still remember the codes lol and my teacher is still underestimating me T^T but there's good in it, but not when I'm being ahead O.o
After that went to archery and helped up Aderline with her archery thing O.o show off my Microsoft skills a little :P BLEH!! xD but was fun lol
Then went down to teach the newbies :3 BORING!!! so play with XueFen!! xD pack up time and Clerin.. O.o damn, he just wont shut up going ON AND ON AND ON like a grandfather being carried away with the story telling on a bed time storey :P So me and XueFen went back to archery room blow air con :3

ARRRHHH!!!!! Tinatic soundtrack My Heart Will Go On by Celine Dion is on radio now!! :P

When going home I remembered my mom telling me she might not cook enough so I called home and my skinny emo brother picked up. So I ask if there's enough and he kept telling me not enough for me. I asked if anyone wants chicken and they all went "anything" hate it when that happens >.> it's just a simple thing and I didn't have to take this kind of shit when I'm offering -.-
I brought the chickens went back starving D: cooked instant noodles and went to eat. My sis asked why did I cook and told me there's more than enough food and it's true when I checked it >.> So I end up waiting for food to be cooked and have a lost $14.40 over this stupid false info D:
Than XueFen texted me saying she's coming tml!! :D YAY!! ^^
NOW!! gonna check Ikea website for bed frames. See is it worth over bikes or a Creative Zen xD

lol I caught up with the class today :D
and I'm loving C-Programming :3 so fun xD no I wanna draw flowchart on everything :P

And I'm finally finish my Eclipse book!! :D and Breaking Dawn next :] OR!!! the NEW book that I got!! :D some books about words :P old words, long words, annoying words ^^ cant wait to use them xP OH OH!!! and I got myself 3 book marks xD feel like giving Eudy one .__. Hmm... should I? :P I'll give her when she gives me my Christmas present!! LOL!!! xD my late Christmas present to you too xP

Then I brought myself a file :D well it came in 3 lol it's those envelope that you see detective using xD fine... It's some sort of mailing thing but SO?!!! xD it looks damn nice and I can draw and design it :3

SO!!! :D Friday movie, Saturday subway!! :D cant wait ^^

Sigh... sis gave me the laptop so slow..now too tired to post more, but I THINK I'm pretty much done now :P NIGHT NIGHT!!! HELLO PILLOWS!!! :D

errm.. So yeah, granny died O.o
Honestly I felt happy for her. She now moves on to a worry free place :]

you did well granny, now go and have your rest. ^^

So yeah!! Thanks to something stupid I end up taking a crazy bad ass emotion roller-coaster ride alone D: and Eva suddenly came on like magic O__o And suddenly all problems gone :3 I don't how, I don't why but every time I get to talk to her the whole world just seems so... trouble free :3

I went to NUH today to get my toe checked up and it's doing great :D And I'm going to have a surgery next Monday. They're going to remove some flash of mine to stop the nail from growing. I wonder would I be awake for it .___. kind of curious of what it's going to be like. I don't know why I'm feeling a sad about this O.o

I got my $207 pay :D and I'm not really sure what to buy xD These are the thing's I've considered buying :3 A knife, boots, bike, MP3(or any audio device), PSP. Either one of these xD

LOL!!!

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^-^ came to school with my favourite weather!! :D dark clouds and SUPER windy :3
played with Uno with the SCs and then start duty until 11.19AM
did my duty in silent feeling so very heavy inside. I didn't want to be a bother to anyone so I'm like fuck it and keep it all in. I've survived 10 fucking years bottling up everything what difference would it be to bottle up more this year?
What can I say? God just love me that way.. fucking around with me -.-
Now I just don't feel like talking to anyone >.>
time check: 2:44, I cried out. >.<
-puts my hands together- I here by thank you god for you have fucked me up inside out from the core within 7days.
I don't feel like posting any more >.>

Another suckish day
Went to school almost late and BANG!! no teacher
waiting in the canteen there cos it's Sports and Wellness(aka. gym class) and there wasn't any teacher there >.>
Stevanie came in and I asked her about my book and she told me it's with her friend. And the last time I lend to someone and that someone lend to someone.. it came back torn like a library book in a gangster town. So I told her, 'if it came back damaged, you're paying for it' and she told me no -.- WHAT THE FUCK?!!! I save up half the year to buy those books and if they all come back damaged before I even read finish EVERYTHING then what are they taking me for?!!! I'm not mother fucking rich!!!
Then the rest of the class slowly join in and one of them is drunk and the first one to disturb is me -.- he pushed my cup off. Thank goodness it's empty. And start leaning on me while I'm reading >.> I pushed him away and he just goes 'oh sorry sorry, if you not happy punch me.' I AM SOOOO tempted to >.>
Then goes for Life Skill class and the teacher is fucking suckish to the core!!! >.> she doesn't know how to control nor does she know how to keep the class listening -.-
On break time me and Hao went up archery room and had a good laugh, well I did.

'Comedy is only a mask fpr the depressed.'

I skipped the last hour of the class to go poly-clinic to get a new dressing for my toe, my sis told me it'll close at 4.30pm so I planned my time perfect as 80% of the time I got there at 4.20pm with lots of help from XueFen. BUT!! Registration close at 4.15pm >.> So now I missed out on education, and I don't have an excuse for the skipping. How cool is that? >.>

'I knew it, this year is going to be suckish.'

A funeral just began and I heard Amazing Grace so I got to the window and sang as I watch the funeral. Some how I felt at peace O.o Then my mind starts to ponder, pondered about my funeral and how I want it to be. And to be honest, I don't want my funeral to be at the void deck(I just learned that void deck is spelled like that O.o) anyway I don't want it there. Maybe in my house? O.o I'm planning on living NOT in a HDB xD

And that's all I've got to say O.o

'This year really going to sucks, I can tell.'

As if this week is not bad enough >.>
Stevanie my classmate, borrowed my book since July 2009 right before June Holiday -.-
YiHao wanted to borrow since then but he being a gentlemen and stuff let her go first O.o I've not seen that book since then >.>
YiHao now wants the book, he wants to continue reading, I NEARLY forgot where it was and I searched my house for it >.>
Then I remembered and asked Stevanie. Then I'm about to fall asleep THEN she reply >.>
she had the whole 4hours to reply and she have to reply when I'm going to fall asleep
and better still, more bad news, she told me the book was with her but now she lend it to her friend.. last time that happened was to my Twilight book and it came back pretty shitty >.>
Okay enough of her >.>

Now on how I truly feels about my new SC team ^-^
They are a whole bunch of fucked tards >.>
They ignores me when I tried to help and I had to fucking scream to voice out my idea, and none of my ideas have been rejected. They could have gotten A LOT more ideas if they would have just let me speak instate of asking those who are already stucked thinking -.-
They'll always talk within themselves and makes me feel like an outcast. And the way they talk is too lame for me and I'm too lame for them.
Okay so in this SC I'm underestimated and being treated like an outcast, but not as much of an outcast than Secondary School. I was treated like a TOTAL outcast back then, they'll sent me to do duty at a far corner all alone and I'll continue with my duty until farther notice because they never tell me what time to end. When it's over I'm still doing my duty because they fucking forgot about me. >.> When the emptiness seems weird, I'll check them out and BANG!! Laughing among themselves in the air-conditional room, for those who remembered me after seeing my face apologies. But I dough that they even meant it, so I just take my bag and goes home.

So I guess that's that O.o

Let's talk alittle bit about my "incredible" sister xD
My sister is dearly loved by my mother, she's THE apple of her eyes. O.o
I'm not jealous but I think she needs some tough love!! We're not rich but she's spoiled with love and she thinks everything must goes her way in the house >.>
These is what she does:
My brother took her lollipop and she found out and went in her room and counted her bags of lollipops which was like... over 30 lollipop >.> and she stomped out of her room and shouted at my brother like he just stole a $50 from her and lose it O__o

Then another time was yesterday O.o my dad came home and told us all to keep our clothing and she got pissed all because we told her to keep mama's clothing which we can never tell between her's and mama's O.o
And she goes to the piano and played with anger .___. sounded really damn stupid xD
Funny thing is she's a nurse and yet she gets angry over things like these .__. what A idiot xD

When I point out her anger issues she started slamming the piano then continue playing it again but seems like slamming the keys >.> does she now not everyone is lucky enough to owns a piano? -.-

okay I'm done xD

Wanted to post yesterday but I lose my mood .__. I'm still feeling unwell.. emotionally >.> It was a day filled with bad things >.>

I had SC duty and.. I feel like a black sheep T.T no one talks to me and they're fucking out of the world lame >.> talking like some rich ass idiots and none of them are insane enough for my liking <.<

I was really hoping that some "punk ass gangsters" would drop out .__. but NOOO all of them are here T.T How the hell am I suppose to score well when I can't study T^T
Then I got home and checked on the beautiful knife that I wanted again <3 I checked on the shipping terms & conditions and found out a big dream crusher T.T they don't ship to Singapore T.T

Then I said something stupid to Eudy and got hurt her(Sorry T.T) D: Than she said something hurting too >.>

Then I goes to sleep and thought of Eva.. and cried myself to sleep >.> well emotionally O.o I cries a lot inside .__. and rarely do they get out. It's because of my past that I end up with this crying all inside thing.. I think O__o The tears that comes out of me is tears from yawning or crocodile tears which I've forgotten how to O.o It's really rare that I cry out .___. >.>

Then Eva reply me again -.- after... a week
This love hurts.. A LOT T.T

Last day before school starts, I realise once again that I just can't move on. I just love you too much. It's 11pm+ over your side, don't thin you'll be coming on today. But yet I'm still waiting O.o

I found the perfect knife I want, CRKT, M16®-01 EDC - Titanium Frame, AutoLAWKS®, Razor-Sharp Edge. It'll be perfect if it's all black and yes, there's a all black version. :D Now the problem is how do I get it shipped here O__o and how do I pay them xD

If I can't get that knife I'll get a tanker boots, it's a... military boot xD

Back from my last day of work!! :P
Amazingly O__O!!! xD I finished off pin point at 12 midnight!! :P I was finding my card and a group of people were counting down xD they sucked at screaming -.-
Sadly what I've hoped didn't happened D: No one count down with me T.T Then I went to the bus stop to wait for the bus and a truck filled with teenagers screamed "HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!" towards the bus stop :P they screamed well :3 really really well xD
Then reached home and no one's awake -.- then soon after dad got home, wished him a happy birthday :D then i get myself some beers ^^ and now I'm doing this O.o posting on my blog xD

'There's a bad thing in getting attached.. You'll feel lost when they leaves you.' - ZombieLand

Last day of work today :D
So freaking tired right now X__x I should be asleep like 3 hours ago xD
Now I'm going to work all tired again D: Eudy might be doing the countdown with me .___. I've never had a countdown with someone else before in Singapore >.< So far I only had it with Lisa xD 2007 to 2008 countdown O.o Canada time lol I have a feeling XueFen and Hao would sent me a text message for the countdown xD but sad :\ I cant reply because I'm working T.T not that I cant but it's best I not to .__. it takes out precious time and it'll lead to washing the glass without lights D:
I'm going to being my head set so I can listen to the radio :3 and talk while working ^^
woke up early for SC meeting thingy and then went to archery to watch Zombie Land :P then when going home don't know why NuRul's all pissed off :\ I'll ask tomorrow X__x

Went to add people on Facebook and read LiQing's blog :P I feel special~~ x3

OKAY!!! I'm gonna pack my bag and goes for a nap then work :3

'I really hope to countdown with you this year. .__.'

'What have happened to the world? Horrible fucked up guys have been stealing girl's heart. And girls have been neglecting the good guys.'

I sucks on my new bow T.T need strength training D: well at least I hit one X(bull's eye) :D LOL!! oh gawd!! :P today could be Nurul's worse day ever x3
when shooting my last few ends I saw Nurul pole dancing :P then in archery room when me and YiHao's playing chess.. Clerin saw Nurul fixing her weggies xP
Then when we're going to the near by mall for KFC, in the bus which was crowded. And Nurul went deep in O.o and we just stay somewhere at the near the front O.o half-way in the ride Clerin went in to join Nurul but me, Hao and Hilmi stayed at where we were xP
I started texting Clerin, 'ten ten ten ten~ when's the wedding?' he showed it to Nurul and she showed me a fist xP So I text him another text saying 'Clerin have waken the witch!!' this time he didn't show Nurul xD and he made a gun shape with his hand and pretended to shoot Nurul while she isn't looking LOL!! xD Then we start using hand signs and lips reading to tell him how to kill the witch x3
When we got off the bus Nurul was asking everyone why is everyone looking at her and laughing :P no one did tell anyway lol
We went to KFC and me and Hao got ourselves Black Pepper buddy meal and it's really HOT X___x not so yummy D: Then we spoke about Left 4 Dead 2 and Hilmi and Clerin start matching us to them by looks and when it reach the witch Nurul suddenly said Aderline and we all Looked at Nurul knowing who's the REAL witch LOL!! xD Then Clerin started talking about once him being in the cinema and he's trying to describe a muscle man O.o he said it's as tall as Hao and have my shoulder as huge as mine and freaking huge chest O.o and I went on and said 'So.. this guy have Hao's hight, my shoulder and Nurul's chest?' xD and we all broke down laughing lol me, Hao and Hilmi face gone red :P me and Hilmi got out lungs in pain from laughing xD and Clerin added more to it but I cant remember what he said xD then I went on and does the King Kong chest banging move while making metal 'ting ting ting' sound xD and we went on and laughed harder :P and yeah Nurul's laughing too x3 then we goes our separates ways O.o we're going home xD

I reached home got a small towel and news paper for work and the rest thing is pretty normal and like normal O.o except for the fact that I found lots of scars on my finger time D: but other than that.. there's nothing O.o

I had a dream of Eva this morning ^^ when my mom woke me up for archery and I fell back to sleep O.o and that's when I dreamt of Eva :3 It was in MY ROOM :O she was seated on my bed which is now broken O.o so I guess I dreamt of the past + an add on? .___. we were seated and watching tv :3 then I tried to cuddle and she giggled and pushed me away xD and I kept trying then she lose her mood of watching tv and had soft pillow fight with me :P then I woke up -.- And Rushed to school O.o

Speaking of Eva :\ I think we're drifting apart T.T I feel like we are D: And I don't know know if I should let it be >.< 3 years of holding on .___. I'm actually scared of 2010 :\ I feel like it's going to be a year of losing >.< I feel like I'm going to lose a lot of things on 2010.. T.T

'Lisa.. I'm scared.. T.T'
'Eudy.. please don't let me regret being so opened.. X___x'

'Lisa, sorry I didn't have as much time to spent with you this week. You'll still and always be my best friend. :3' - To Lisa from her twin brother ^^

I forgotten to put up a poem I made on yesterday's post O___o It's funny to me. But may offend people.. in fact a LOT of people xD I'll write it down at the bottom of this post. WARNING: IT MAY BE OFFENSIVE TO RELIGIOUS PEOPLE!

Today woke up and I couldn't stay awake X__x and end up going archery at 12noon xD
Play chess with Clerin, I swear I could have won xP but I wants to shoot so I just went all kamikaze and lost .__.
SO!!! I went to shoot with HaoHao and I THINK I got my sighting with my NEW bow ^^ but it's not really mine lol It's school's bow ASSIGNED to me :P
Shoot only very little and I'm dead tired X___x tomorrow by monthly shoot out sure die T.T my left arm SUCKS!!!! must take steroids :P(I don't take those crap) ^-^v
Went and had dinner with HaoHao :3 then go take bus to work O.o I go~

I got to work and again they open extra hours :\ and my job only comes out when they are done and closed O.o so the longer they open the harder and later I'll have to work T.T nothing special happened today other than the same old envy I have -.-

I thought of this poem when I'm peeing and it suddenly rain O.o then the whole idea of the poem came in xD WARNING: THE THINGS YOU READ BELOW MAY BE OFFENSIVE. Now that I warned you, you have the choice to read it or not to read it. So don't come to me going all '#@%$@&*@%_&@#$' at me. x3

'The sky darkened as I walked towards.. while the children of the desert ran out and play.
The thunder rolls as I unzip.. while grown ups rushes to keep their clothings.
A group of teenagers danced under the rain while the rain goes on and on as I.. well I am the god of rain after all.'

Ya I know, I ain't good in poem xD

on Sunday I thought it was Monday and woke up at 6am and get to school before 8 O.o
When I get out of Yishun MRT station I realise it's Sunday T.T
I didn't know what to do so wondered around the mall xD and end up in MacDonald
So I look around for a seat :3 aiming for a a corner where no body would bother me BUT!!... it's taken T.T by a kid maybe 8 years old? O.o sleeping all alone .__. first thought was..

'This kid needs a happy meal to boost up.'

xD
So!! I took the table beside him O.o I spent an hour watching soccer only for the fighting parts :P spam everyone :3 and XueFen's the only one who replied O.o then she goes to sleep. Call Eudy O__o and she hanged out on me T.T I asked her if she wants to watch Sherlock Holmes xD
No one came to get that kid and I'm getting bored out of my mind O__o so just leave.. I wanted to tell the stuff and the security guard about that kid but I'm too shy T.T but the stuff did see the boy :3 I wonder how's that boy now >.<
Then I got onto bus 171 no one to text so I just called Lisa xD she doesn't talk much D: ON PHONE! xD
Spoke to her for the whole ride ^^ then went to buy SoyMilk <3 and found out phone is dying T.T so I had to hang up D:
I didn't want to go home just yet, so I walk around Lot 1 Mall xD and YAY!!! A few store is opened ^^ I went down to check on my work place and my coworker didn't notice me and I just went off to a video store :3

'Gotta love careless cashiers!'

I went in the store, my mother gave me her card with points in it that is worth $20 in that store O__o so I got myself Phobia 2 and My Bloody Valentine total $25.60 I gave $30 and she gave me $14.40 but I thought I gave her $40 by mistake but when I checked the receipt and I really gave her $30 xD
$10 discount!! ^^
Went home and watched the movies and then work and that's the end :3

I woke up and went back to sleep and did that an hour later again xD which is why I'm late today for archery :P and people keep taking the toilet D: I had a big tiring day X__x
Make 3 strings, tune my bow a little, shop with YiHao, go get a new dressing at the poly-clinic, replace the laptop power adapter, and work O___o
I manage to make Hao's and Eudy's string and half of mine all without the center serving O.o I was tightening my serving and the string went over and my hand just flew and hit the hard metal of the string making thing X__x and it just swell up :\ and I got a cut on my index finger T.T I couldn't feel my finger X___X So I got Hilmi to help me finish the job :D and he managed to finish mine and Hao's then we have to go O.o because I made my string too slow xD So no tuning of my bow T.T
I asked Hao if he really wants to go shopping and he said now -.- so we end up following Hilmi shopping for something for his mama :3 Then I took 171 home and it's too late for a new dressing O.o so continued and took bus 190 then bus 302 and Manage to change a new laptop adapter ^^

MY LAPTOP IS BACK!!! :D

When going to take a but there was this group of people offering to give free fats percentage and more O.o so I just took it and

gosh xD I need to loose weight starting now lol

After a few tips from that guy I went on to work O.o and work myself to the core X__x so dead tired by the end of the whole thing X____X and yeah, I didn't had lunch and dinner before working D:
When I got home I ate something and drank a packet of my soy milk ^^ got and try the new adapter and this is what I get :3 updating clog on LAPTOP!!
Spoke to Maggie and she spoke of Eva and I nearly cried >.< thinking of her :\ and Now I'm typing all these and falling asleep X___x
GOOD NIGHT!!! :3

My Dream Car

Carbon black metalic Hummer H3T Luxury with Automatic Transmission and Ebony w/ Pewter Piping interal colour. Body Color Grille, Black Tubular Assist Steps, Black Brush Grille Guard, DVD Rear Entertainment System and DVD Nav Radio*. for options. And Off-Road Light Bar, Chr Lower Grille Lamps, Side Window Deflectors, and All-Season Floor Mats for accessories."

i didnt wake up this morning O.o cos i didnt sleep at all in the night xD
my bro wanted the comp and then my mom wanna eat out :3 so we went out to some crapy place cos my bro wanted chicken chop .___.
i didnt know what to get so i told my mom to surprice me :P and she got me turtle and crocodle for lunch!! YUMM!!!!! :D
went on and text Eudy O.o and scared her when i think the road she was going to take is closed
anyway she found out it wasnt close soon after :P i wonder how O.o
then went off to visit my cousin ^^ chit chat for a LONG time then soon some doctor went in and we go and get lunch O.o
over eat BIG time!! X__x
it was.. emotional .__.
went back and set on the massage chair xD and fell asleep woke up and my cousin told me to just sleep lol then she ditched me T^T
woke up with a message from work and now i got back my work ^^ i spoke to granny for the 1st time in my life O___o and she dont seems so well :\

Gonna add a new song ^^ to my playlist :3

BACK FROM CAMP!!!! ^-^
lol on the 1st day of camp had my toe appointment thing O.o
came back with a BIG BAD ASS toe!! :P
atleast i did came on the day and stay overed unlike some "whole day dental treatment" xD
my dad drove me to school after the procedure thingy whatever they call it O.o lets just call it a toe project!! :D ~less confusing~
my dad got lost going to my school and end up going to somewhere with nice view :D
when entering school saw XueFen O.o then my dad ask "your girl friend or what? is she why u buy that bag?" Yeeah xD he's not over the whole bag thing yet lol
but he's over it now :P i think O.o


on 1st night Eudy was seating at laptop and being kinda being a loner D: got me worried a little but atleast i know now .__.
i wonder how's her hand >.<
why am i even caring? O__o is this normal? >.< socializing life is confusing X___x
~is thempted to shut myself up again~ T.T

Day 2: woke up to Nurul's crying.. wtf? O.o
XueFen drew my foot xD
and Clerin hit my toe when sleeping T^T
checked a few arrows went to lunch and ate with my hands after so long xD
i miss eating with my hands alone :3
after lunch i sleep whole day O.o and was shocked that no one wake me up to do things o.O
mostly Mr. Lam O__o
and still let me eat BBQ ^^ MID-RAW!!!! ROAR!!!! :P
i farted none stop though-out the camp .__. damn u anti-biotics xD
end up watching movie The Notebook with HaoHao O.o i was watching alone then the screen woke him up and he just join me :P LOL!! we witness Ben's sleep talk :P
and he thinks he dont snore xD
after watching The Notebook try sleep again and i failed T^T until another hour or so O.o then... K.O.!!!!! -dead- xP

Day 3: burned my tounge when taking my anti-biotics T.T
sorted more arrows O.o then i helped up with the packing up ^^
cant go down to the field with my BIG BAD ASS toe xD
then we had pizza :3 and i learned that Super Mario is based on a true flying turtle slayer story xD sort of :P and I'm got a new bow!! :D ^^
soo shiney~ :3 dont want take Siment's bow O.o he scares me T^T so does Peter >.<
they scary T.T
then went home with Eudy and Hao ^^
went to my work place and show my toe and got fired lol damn? xD
reach home watch tv and sleep~ .__.
still too used to sleeping in the day xD must change that when school start X___x
after Mr Lam's talk on the whole study thing.. i think i found my study style :3
read then ask things that i dont know ^^ the way he talks still scares me .__.

yesterday my sis got me a christmas gift!! :D a HUGE teddy bear O.o now i dont know how to sleep my bed no space xD and she gave me at a bad timing O.o
i was figuring out the laptop wire and have showed to emotion receiving the bear O.o and just placed one side .__. OOPPPSSSS!!!!!!!! xD
okay now im scared .__. hope Eudy wont get angry when i received her present oddly X___x I DONT KNOW HOW TO REACT!!!! T.T

my GPA droped BIG time T.T 2.9 D:
nuuu nu nuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!! T.T
2010 = HARD CORE MOOTAR FORKER STUDY MOOOD!!! xD
now waiting for the 7th to get my pay O.o my 2 weeks pay D: work so little >.>
i ren out of things to say ^-^"

Everyday of the camp, I wish you were with me.

These 3 days I've been not been treating myself well.. :\
I've been eating one meal per day and I had 4 hours of sleep within these pass 3 days >.>
I have my longest lasting friend working with me but I don't want to share my problems with him, I envy him. He didn't even try to make friend and he have all the friends in the world including mine which then finds him cooler than me and leaves me. And when he have all the friends he wants, he leaves me to support myself on my own.
I was a fucked up depress person >.> back in secondary school -.-

Why does it hurt?

I'm quitting my job, my $9.40 per day cleaner job. Totally dirty and under paid. I'm quitting because of my tuupid toe T.T weird this is.. having such a suckish job and I'm hurt that I'm quitting O___o maybe it's because that I felt wanted and needed there although I know I'm just being used.. :\ I'm really confused right now D:

'If I could fly, I'd pick you up, I'd take you into the night and show you a love. Like you've never seen... ever seen.' - Into The Night by Benny Mardones

I'm going to dedicate this blog to someone very very very special in my life :3
He's so very special because he is a HUGE pain in the ass and there's no way of getting raid of him until like 10 years down the road. BUT!! D: One way or another he'll still be in my life >.> he is my brother, Lim ShiFeng, 3rd eldest child xD

He's so freaking hell in love!! :D Honestly I've never seen love like this before O.o
He would come home early everyday to spent all the rest of his day with her :3 but all that changed when he told me he wants to upgrade her O.o yeah she's the computer xP
When he reach home he'll just put his bag beside his seat on the computer, put his shoe away and seat there ALL DAY LONG!! All the way until 10pm++
And that's what pisses me off!! >.>

He just seats there and does nothing else -.-
He'll make my brother get him his dinner and make him drinks. And what happens when daddy isn't in a good mood .___. MY DAD WILL SCOLD ME FOR BULLYING MY BRO(Lim ShiJie, youngest)!!!! What the FORK?!!!

And worse, he's lazy and a TOTAL self centered idiot >.> Once I was maintaining my toe... half way though it he walks in the room and shut the lights just so he can sleep -.- What's the BOX-JELLYFISH problem with him?!!

The whole lazy idea of him changed when he gets a job O.o
I though he's going to be a freaking hell slacker at work or something like that SINCE he is a freaking hell slacker at Judo and quit soon after. He worked hard O.o
So I guess he wasn't as lazy as I though he was BUT!! it all change back soon after!! xD
When he quit after receiving his first pay .__. So yeah xD
forking box-jellyfish lazy and self centered xD

Yesterday I found my Sweeny Todd DVD!!! :D
^^ my brother lost it last year and I cried xD but now!! YAY!!! :3

For the whole night I've been watching movies after movies :P
I watched Australia, then I watch 9 and the last one that I watched was... Elizabethtown!!
Australia, wasn't so fun but it's worth watching when you're bored xD
9, FREAKING HELL AWESOME!!!!! :D Lots of surprise attack which frightened me xD the only bad thing about this movie was the ending don't seems like an ending D: but other than that!! FREAKING HELL AWESOME!!! <3
Elizabethtown, comedy romance. There's still parts where you get emotional speed bumps xD
This movie is about this guy who lost his job, then his girl and wanted to suicide. But then his dad died. THEN!! He met this air stewardess and BING BANG BOOM!!! :D
WATCH IT!! :D

I watched them all and now that I see Eva's IMVU last log on thing.. I think I missed her :\ but I don't know D:
I'm going to wait a while then I'll go sleep. Caffeine in me ran out and I'm crashing down X___x
That's all FOR NOW!!

'A wise man told me that your whole life flashes before your very eyes right before you pee.'

I am that wise man. ;D

Okay, I don't feel like talking about the whole torture thing any more. I just want to talk to Eva about it. >.< So don't remind me about it any more, k? Just tell me what do you think of me after know how much of a violent person I am inside. THE END!!

Today this video I found made me happy :D
It's Evgeni Plushenko ice skating to the song Sex Bomb by Tom Jones :P

I have stong violence hiden inside of me.

I was expecting a happy day today, but it didn't came out good at all.
my plan was have fun with my ex-classmate's house, play games and watch movies.
I left my hard drive at work the night before, so I have to go back to get it back. While doing so, I brought some news paper since they just ran out.
I went to get breakfast and used NETS to pay. Over spend again D: from $18+ now $4.59 :\
So went to my friend's house a little late and played a few games then we watched The Taking of Pelham 1 2 3. Half way though it, my brother called.

He told me that my youngest brother stole something from 7/11. That's when I have to step in AGAIN!! >.> I don't wish to, but.. I had to. And it killed my day. I end up having to go home right away. My father told my brother to punish him and he ran out and told me that I have to punish him -.- and the only way I knew was what my dad did to me.. And what he did was horrible >.> it made Eva hate my dad. I promised myself I won't beat him up, as it makes me feel like I would beat up my kids when I becomes a father. :\ I planned on lecturing him.. but :\ I end up torturing him... I didn't want to T.T and now I just fucking hate myself for doing so. I DON'T WANT TO LIVE NO MORE!!!!!!! T.T I can't believe I'm that cruel.. Is it right for me to blame my dad for this? :\ You want to know what I did? I'll tell you. But don't remind me about these in the future. What I did was.. >.< I poured ice cold water on him then poured hot water on him :\ and I did it over and over again T.T.. and I after that... I made him kneel on the broomstick... for ten minutes >.>
Why do I have all these violent cruel thoughts?!! T.T I'm so lost...
Tell me honestly.. does this makes me a sick and fucked up person? T.T Do you think of me differently now? :\

AWW!!!! I'm missing Eva again! T.T
And yet I have to go to sleep, I wish I don't have to sleep. It's just a waste of time D:
Going to have a troublesome morning. I forget to bring back my hard-drive from work and I need it tomorrow. Going to friend's house to play games which is in my hard drive. O.o
And I work at night not sure who does in the morning. :\
WELL!! WISH ME LUCK!! X__x

Few things happened today :3
First!! I found a drawing thingy to put on my IMVU page ^^ now me and Eva can draw on my homepage and this time I can invite Eudy in :P
GOSH!!! She had gotta have the sweetest handwriting ever!! How much more perfect can a woman be!! :3 great looks, cutest voice, cutest handwriting, prode of who she is and doesn't take crap from others. <3 I don't think I'll ever get over you. Although I would have crushes that comes and goes, you'll always be the one person who have my heart. :D
OKAY!! Enough of Eva for now xD

LOL!! Went to buy hair band with YiHao, damn gay at first but oddly I find it fun soon after. I guess shopping joy is from the people you're going shopping with. O.o Who knew xD I didn't stay long though. I had to go to work. At work was.. pretty much the same; boring, tiring and getting cuts without knowing. O.o But my last task was different :3
I had to clean the venting filter thingy O.o and gross!! I feel like I'm cleaning up what my brother left behind. X__x Except this doesn't seems to have an ending, it just keep coming and coming and coming!! @____@ Well!! What the hack!! Someone gotta do it right?

The store next to mine gave us all their left over again, and I took most of it again. xD Free meat, help slow down the cash flow :D but I was so tired I had to go to the Cheer(store) to buy myself a bottle of VitaSoy soy milk :3 and yes AGAIN xD BUT!!! Today was different lol

Counter: A plastic bag again?
Me: haha, yes thank you.
Counter: Haha I remember you. You 1st came in with books and now you keep coming back with bags of food(paper bag of chicken). You work there?
Me: Yup.
Counter: What's inside?
Me: Chickens, want some?
Counter: You sure?
Me: Ya, take one.
Counter: -pull out small plastic bag- give me one
Me: Take any you like.
Counter: -takes one HUGE chicken leg- Haha thanks
Co-Worker behind: You black already still take black chicken, later become more black!!
Counter: You just jealous I have and you don't right?! Haha thanks, come back with more next time.
Me: okay, bye!!

LOL!! There was a long queue thanks to that xD And the wise would say bad customer service, which I guess it is. But I like it that way, lightens up my day when things like these happens. :D "Unprofessional" but who cares ^^

OH OH!!! And I just thought of what to shout out on any next ice breaking thingy :P

'I'm Lim Shi Xiang, remember me well as I have a big penis and are not afraid to use it!!'

I'll say that :P only when Eudy's around O.o I don't think I would be that open when it's just me alone. :\

OKAY!! So.. I'm going to start using this as a dairy, inspired by Eudy Oh.
I should write more than this O.o
Okay then.. I'll dedicate this post to you, Eudy Oh. This year is the first time I open socially since 10 years of shutting myself away from social life. Throughout the 10 years I've been at home, spending all my time with Lisa(Canada) and Eva(America).
Opening up isn't easy for me, I don't know how to react to a lot of things and would most likely get mistaken over my reaction. But when my reaction is odd, that's when I'm touched, well most of the time. So that's just a little FYI for you.
When I'm lost and confused on what's going on, I know that I can turn to you for an emergency plan and not panicking maniac with people shouting 'MAN OVER BOARD!!'.
I was confused over my emotions once. And I thank you for putting me back on track. Thank you so very much. :3
ps. Is this too formal? xD